Much Has Happened ...

I'm back. Looking at my own blog, my last entry was 20 Feb. That was over 3 months ago. Many things have happened.

Feb 28: my last day at the god-forsaken place

Mar 1 - 31: a well-deserved but financially irrational break

Apr 3: the start of a new life

As for now:

Health

• knee still hurts, although not as much
• temporarily dumped Commonwealth for Jurong
• stomach still flatulent, although not as much

Baby

• still no sign of the little fella

Work

• much smaller company
• next to no politics
• but basic salary cannot sustain me
• wondering when the sales and corresponding commission will come
• but overall still happier

Finances

• extremely bad shape
• bank account was already so minute
• now every month still must top up because of deficit

Mood

• while glad that I'm out of the hell hole, but still moody, or maybe even worse
• seems like the last episode(s) have caused such a major dent in my life/progress/confidence/self-worth
• stakes are so high that I'm so afraid to fail again
• so afraid that if I fail again, I will never have the mental strength to get up
• have become resentful, but keep reminding myself not to be
• very touched that I have friends around me who take a serious interest in my well-being
• besides Wifey, Elliot is the other one who has witnessed my deep-thinking/sorrow/my feeble perk-me-ups

Lessons

• financial awareness - now I can account right down to the last cent
• politics is a way of life
• learning to forgive is a near-impossibility
• there are friends that care
• then there are friends that you think are close, yet you hesitate in telling them your financial difficulties
• mental strength is like latent heat - you can't see it, but it's what makes the difference

I WILL SURVIVE, AND WILL LIVE TO TELL!