It's a bit hard to believe sooooo many things happened today, all unpleasant.
- A close colleague tendered his resignation today. While he has my blessings, all my technical projects are now in jeopardy.
- We lost the tender that we were so confident of winning. My boss wants to appeal. Like duhhh, appeal against a tender loss?
- The other tender we are nurturing is dangerously close to being clinically dead. The partner we are working with wants "a better price than what our competitor is getting". Like duhhh, you sure your info choon?
- Wifey told me over dinner that her friend has been admitted. She has early-stage TB. I was like "WHAT??!! And how old is she??" Yes, she was a heavy smoker once, but she has cut down lots from last time. And she's still so young. How come some people smoke throughout their fucking life and barely catch a cold?
- A good friend whose wedding I'm supposed to attend in 2 weeks' time called. "Just to let you know the wedding is off". "WHY?" I raised my voice for no apparent reason. "I'm not ready to talk about it now." Now WTF is going on here?
- While calling another close friend to talk about the called-off wedding, more bad news. Her husband just quitted his job in AU, and is now back in SG. Reason? Stupid fickle-minded boss. Hmm ...
While all these were happening, I was actually just back from a training course on self-discovery that asked poignant questions, like:
- Do you have a role model? (No.)
- Do you have a personal mission statement? (No.)
- What are your personal goals? (Never got that figured out since primary school.)
- Do you know that there is no such thing as "no choice"? (Is that right?)
- Do you know that the thing / scene /value you think of when you are day-dreaming, is your real inner-thoughts? (Err, ok.)
The course really made me think of what I don't have (a goal) and what I didn't do (things that will get me to the goal). I will spend the next few weeks thinking of what I want to own / be / at , and how to achieve them.
While I am taking the day's unfoldings in good stride, I think it offers many lessons that will take me a while more to comprehend and digest.
Anyhow, I hope it will be a looooong time more before the Day of Bad News returns.
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